BIRTH
OF THE SONG "PRECIOUS LORD"
Back in 1932 I was 32 years old and a fairly new husband. My wife,
Nettie and I were living in a little apartment on Chicago's south
side. One
hot August afternoon I had to go to St. Louis, where I was to be the
featured
soloist at a large revival meeting. I didn't want to go. Nettie was in
the last
month of pregnancy with our first child. But a lot of people were
expecting
me in St Louis.
I kissed Nettie good-bye, clattered downstairs to our Model A
and, in a
fresh Lake Michigan breeze, chugged out of Chicago on Route 66.
However,
outside the city, I discovered that in my anxiety at leaving, I had
forgotten my
music case. I wheeled around and headed back. I found Nettie
sleeping
peacefully. I hesitated by her bed; something was strongly telling me
to stay. But
eager to get on my way, and not wanting to disturb Nettie, I
shrugged off the
feeling and quietly slipped out of the room with my music. The
next night, in the steaming
St. Louis heat, the crowd called on me to sing again
and again.
When I finally sat down, a messenger boy ran up with a Western
Union
telegram. I ripped open the envelope. Pasted on the yellow sheet
were
the words: YOUR WIFE JUST DIED. People were happily singing and
clapping
around me, but I could hardly keep from crying out. I
rushed to a phone and called
home. All I could hear on the other end was "Nettie is
dead. Nettie is dead." When
I got back, I learned that Nettie had given birth to a boy. I
swung between grief
and joy. Yet that night, the baby died. I buried Nettie and
our little boy together,
in the same casket. Then I fell apart. For days I
closeted myself.
I felt that God had done me an injustice. I didn't want to serve
Him any more
or write gospel songs. I just wanted to go back to that jazz
world I once knew so well.
But then, as I hunched alone in that dark apartment those first
sad days,
I thought back to the afternoon I went to St. Louis.
Something kept telling me
to stay with Nettie. Was that something God? Oh, if I had paid more
attention to Him that day, I would have stayed and been with Nettie
when
she died.
From that day on I vowed to listen more closely to Him. But still
I was lost
in grief.
Everyone was kind to me, especially a friend, Professor Fry, who
seemed
to know what I needed. On the following Saturday evening he took
me up to
Malone's Poro College, a neighborhood music school. It was quiet;
the
late evening sun crept through the curtained windows. I sat
down at the piano, and
my hands began to browse over the keys.
Something happened to me then. I felt at peace. I felt as though
I could
reach out and touch God. I found myself playing a melody, one
into my
head-they just seemed to fall into place:
Precious Lord, take my hand,
lead me on, let me stand!
I am tired, I am weak,
I am worn, Through the storm, through the night lead me on to the
light,
Take my hand, precious Lord, Lead me home.
The Lord gave me these words
and melody, He also healed my
spirit. I learned that when we are in our deepest grief, when we
feel farthest
from God, this is when He is closest, and when we are most open
to His
restoring power. And so I go on living for God willingly and
joyfully,
until that day comes when He will take me and
gently lead me home.
Tommy Dorsey
Did you know that Tommy Dorsey wrote this song? I sure didn't.
What a
wonderful story of how God CAN heal the brokenhearted.